The transparent guilt of a PhD student

The transparent guilt of a PhD student

That’s funny. I don’t recall buying tickets for a guilt trip!

Two weeks back, I spent a whole weekend with some of my friends, cooked lots of food, played basketball and did roam around the city. All this while, there is a voice in my head constantly telling me, “what are you even doing? You could be working and complete that little thing in your PhD”. Yeah, yeah, I know. I’m feeling bad already :(

On the weekend after that, I was fully occupied by work. I have been working from saturday morning to sunday late afternoon. All this while, there is a voice in my head constantly telling me, “what are you even doing with your life? You could be having fun with your friends and living a life.” Yeah, yeah, I know. I’m feeling bad already :(

As you see, in both cases, I’m feeling bad about myself not doing the other thing. Poor me. It seems like I can still deal with the voice in my head and do whatever I was doing.

The problem is, I can clearly see myself reaping the benefits of working while having fun with friends. On the other hand, I can see the benefits of spending quality time with friends while working my *** off. And that’s not a good feeling. Even worst, you have to deal with it for a long time.

Don’t tell me you are a PhD student who doesn’t go through this cycle.

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